So connexions finally called me, and i have to go in tomorrow. I know I should look forawrd to it because I might come out of there with a job/course or whatever to apply to, but i’m dreading it. I can’t stand these kinds of things, and they’re even worse when i have to go out of my way to go to one. I really really really don’t want to go. I’m so negative about it when I should be positive. I want a job so I can have some moneys 
Not to spend on crap and going out on saturday nights like most girls my age do.. but to spend on a home course, an alevel, or just a class for art or photography. I’m highly considering the suzi blu ‘goddess and the poet’ class, but like I said, I don’t have the funds! My dream would be to be an artist/photographer or to be able to make what I enjoy making and to be able to sell it to other people. Sounds crazy right now doesnt it? ha… I want to meet some other online artists to talk to etc. It all seems to be a bit bitchy at the moment right now. People stealing other peoples work, people copying, people giving harsh critisms they weren’t asked to give, so you can kind of see how it is from the outside view. Bugger it. My mum always says ‘don’t panic katie, you aren’t going to turn into a pumpkin overnight’. She is so right (per usual.). I should just go to this thing tomorrow, if i dont like it, dont go back.. I need to be optimistic! Dreams don’t come true by themselves, we have to work for what we want, and if thats so.. i’d better get working! xoxo
(A drawing I did at the start on september.. I have a block at the moment (ughhhhh), so I thought i’d post this one :/)
